Last week I published a blog post inviting us all to ask ourselves the question: What Really Matters?
I shared what really matters to me:
- That my connection to spirit is strong.
- That I live with gratitude, especially that I live with a vital sense of appreciation for the ordinary and everyday.
- That I be the person who I am at my best, for myself and others.
- That I feel like I am living on a solid footing of grace and equanimity.
Since writing that, I realized that I long for a stronger feeling of connection to spirit.
I have always been a person for whom my spiritual life is important. I’ve always had an active spiritual practice and a consistent spiritual focus in my life. I seem to have been born that way, even as a small child.
However, the circumstances of this last year, with our world facing numerous major challenges, including the Covid virus, have challenged my equanimity in unprecedented ways.
I’ve had too many wobbles this last year, too many times when I was aware that I have reacted to these circumstances with an edge of irritation and worry, rather than a response of resourcefulness, gratitude and appreciation. I have felt worn down, much of the time.
This “worn down” is more than just physical and emotional. My spiritual “bandwidth” has just been insufficient for the relentless challenges in our world in the last year.
I have realized that yes, I have an active spiritual life, and, it’s time to tend to it even more, and to rely on it even more.
So, I am hereby declaring my intention to live a more grateful and spiritually-connected life.
What does this look like?
Right now, I’m not sure, but that’s ok. For right now, my clear intention is enough.
What do you long for?
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