Life causes me to expand. Life gives me what I need to expand.
My Expansion (any of ours) is unfolding and emerging organically.
I want to engage with it, and not resist it. It is going to have its way with me anyway. 🙂
But, and it’s a Big But, how do I know it when I see it? How do I know what is authentic Expansion (coming from my inner essence, or True Self), and what are the Shoulds, Coulds, Oughtas, or the Next Shiny Thing?
For me, it is a kinesthetic sense. Expansion that originates from my True Self feels like a deep grounding of This-Feels-Right-ness within me.
I’ve practiced tuning into this inner essence long enough that I know when something feels right/is right.
But it is a continual dance with life, checking in, pausing, and resetting my course to align with what is calling me from my deep sense.
What is “mine to do”? What is it time for now?
These questions are beginning to be a more unconscious feeling and response now, but in the beginning I needed to stop and pause and go within, many times during a day, in order to stay aligned with the true course that I want to be on.
And, this process and practice applies to everything for me, right down to the mundane and minute as well as the “big questions” of life.
It has become a path of sensing the “inner impulse of knowing”.
Many times, I don’t know the answers to all of my questions. This way of being in the world doesn’t guarantee that every answer comes to me just because I want it to, and when I want it to.
I’ve had to learn that in order to respect true Expansion, I must respect true Expansion’s timing. So I spend a lot of time in the Land of Not Knowing. But I have found that if I hold my questions gently and curiously, without attachment, the answers come right when I need them.
Expansion has been a wise teacher this month. I’ve re-learned some things that I already knew but had been neglecting, and I learned some new things. This seems to be the way that it has been going with the 12 Words this year.
Now…drum roll please…it is on to July’s word: Flow. Maybe I will just let Expansion flow, and then be done for the month. 🙂 I am sure Flow has more in store for me than just that. Stay tuned.